Carter Benjamin

A Sacrament of Water and Lavender

Infant Loss and Grief

For six weeks, I carried our son Carter in my belly, knowing that his days were numbered. While the day we'd say ...

Filling In the Blanks

Grief and Child Loss

Carter would have turned five today. I keep saying this over in my head: five, five, five.  I'm trying to wrap my ...

Cupcakes, Baked Potatoes, & The Purple Box

Today is and always will be bittersweet. Four years ago in Marion, Indiana, we held our son Carter in our arms. His ...